It’s possible… this is a phrase I have come to love, but one I have taken for granted most of my life. I loved trying new things as a kid and found success in almost everything I did – gymnastics, swimming, dance, viola. I’m pretty sure my Mom tired of my constant exploration, but trying and succeeding at new things made me believe that anything was possible if I put my mind to it.
While this belief was strong when it came to succeeding in life – good grades, undergraduate and graduate degrees, career, athletics – I eventually came to believe I’d never be successful losing weight. It just wasn’t in the cards for me. I’d have to settle for success everywhere in my life except this one thing. What I’ve now come to appreciate is that I didn’t fail. If anything, I tried harder to lose weight than anything else I’ve ever accomplished. I just didn’t realize I was fighting a losing battle.
After learning that most diets fail and being “thin” doesn’t equate health, I wondered what the heck it was all for. I had been chasing an ideal that in the grand scheme of things, wouldn’t have made me happier and more successful than I already was. Was it possible for me to let go of years not feeling good enough and be okay if I never lost another pound? SCARY. But necessary if I was going to heal my relationship with food and my body.
A switch didn’t flip. There was no immediate acceptance of my body as it was or my history of soothing myself with food. This desired state was almost impossible to fathom after years of fighting the battle. So I began with “it’s possible”. It’s possible that I could accept my body as it was and even love it for all it does for me day in and day out. It’s possible that I could manage my emotions without turning to food for comfort.
“It’s possible” gave me hope that I might actually be able to find peace with food and my body, something I hadn’t experienced in 20 years. “It’s possible” created space to explore my patterns with kindness and curiosity, without the urgent deadline that accompanied most of my weight loss efforts. What was once just a possibility, is now my reality. What could you change or let go of, if only it were POSSIBLE?